where is the love?

first post in over a month =O i feel ashamedd... well not really XD
so lots of things have changed this year already, but it's all good stuff =] i'm still waiting to hear from york st. john university..but i have all my other offers. shame i dont want to go anywhere else =P
i have lotsss of re work to do.. but i really cant be bothered with it because...there's TOO much XD ahhh well i'm having a good time in lifee =D
i have to go to work soon =/ but then again work's alright at the moment, 'tis all money eyy =P
oh.. and driving test fail last week, taking a corner too fast, grrr XD but i have it rebooked now so hopefulllllly *fingers crosseddd*
my birthday in 3 WEEEKKSS!! can't wait to be 18, though i'm beginning to wonder whether i'll actually ever look it =P
can't wait for thursday, the valentines ball, seems like a good way to get pissed =P then friday's the same in middlesborough hehehehee =P

share the love <3

For the living know that they will die,
but the dead know nothing;
they have no further reward,
and even their name is forgotten.

so tell me you love me, 'cause it makes me feel alive for the first time... i love you too ♥

so this is my first post of 2011, which is odd...sorry sally (my only reader) ;P
this year so far (a whole 5 days of it!) has been great, and i'm putting that down to the fact that i have decided to be more positive =D new years resolution, why would i give up chocolate when i can just see that it puts me in a more positive mood? ;)
anddd....soon i will be able to driveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
and i'll be 18 in march!
an only slight problem is that i have exams soon...but they'll pass ;)
and even though i haven't had any uni offers yet, at least york st john have 'acknowledged my application' - lol.
eeeeeekk i'm so happy right now =D

girls just wanna have fun ;)

yes. that is all =)

it's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right. i hope you've had the time of your life :D

the glass is always half full...

tomorrow marks the end of 2010; an eventful year by most standards. it had it's ups and downs (more ups though i think, which is a good thing XD ). many good friends drifted away (quite literally, some are in different countries), but i've also met so many wonderful people. unfortunately, they're spread right across the country so it's only rare chances i'll ever see them again, so more people to miss... XD
i've found out this year that if you want someone to stay in your life, you've got to make the effort to keep them there. but sometimes, it's just not worth it. in the end, if they can't be bothered with you, then why should you bother with them? that's the last resort of course... i mean, i've not cried about all this stuff to friends when drunk or anything... ;S anyway, some people are just dickheads. =]
i've also seen things in people that i've never seen before, i've found that if you take the time out to think about what someone is saying then you can find a whole new dimention to their personality, which you could either love or hate. i've found selfishness has been a trend amongst many friends, which i dont really like... but i've also found some new (possibly warped) senses of humour which i think are quite funny... hmm i've said found too many times now, i'll stop... =P
so 2010, thankyou for the good times and everything you've taught me, and bring on 2011, a year of massive change, maybe it will make me more mature (i.e. gain the mental age of more than an 8 year old, or even possibly make me look older than about 12? =]) but lets not get our hopes up ;)

this is how you remind me of what i really am.

now i've never really got these things, i always thought they were like...writing a diary online for everyone to see. but i think they're okay, so long as i don't spill my heart out ;)
so i'm thinking, on the odd occasion i've felt like i wish i was born someone different, to live somewhere else. wouldn't it be so much easier to live your life as some celebrity? but recently, i've felt like i belong here, the way i do. i was walking into town and saw the cathedral (wooo!) and thought how odd ripon is. it's tiny but it's a city (not that it means anything XD) and it's so beautiful when you really look at it, and has such a good history, so many stories! i know i would rather be here than anywhere else, i couldn't stick it in a big city (i get scared in morrisons on a busy sunday, imagine me in the middle of oxford street!). don't get me wrong, i can't wait to go off to university for a few years, but right now this feeling of belonging right here is making me feel rather content with the world... ahh, bliss :)

is there anybody out there?

so this is my first post on a blog, ooh exciting! i mean, i don't expect many people to read this, or indeed give a shit, but it's nice to think someone might care. on facebook, i recently saw people using blogs as a way to 'vent' (naomi moorhouse and megan griffiths if you're reading this give us a shout) and they inspired me to do it too. not that im a very venty person (lol, i probably am) but you know...
so i'm thinking, i'd like to try and keep this thing positive, as i'd like to think of myself as quite a positive person (again, lol, probably not) but it's a good start. a wise man once told me that there's no point complaining about things, because where's that going to get you? if you think that an injustice has been carried against you/your life then try to sort it out yourself, don't expect someone else to do it for you.
also, here's a picture of baby me, just for the 'random kicks and giggles' =)